He's back.

After the years I've known him as a friend, and loved him as my own, this is one of the few times I've felt that something was amiss.

Yes, he was still that sweet person I've fallen in love with. But he just wasn't his usual self.

It turns out, he's been having some 'issues' with people who've been spreading false RUMORS behind his back. It's downright cruel. And it's downright hurtful. And these hypocrites have the gall to act all nice to him in his face. Sigh. How two-faced can you get?

I don't know why some evil people find pleasure in the misery of destroying others... wherefore they should rather spend time improving themselves, or their own craft? I can't understand the psyche of backstabbers, and gossipers to the highest degree. They'd rather talk about someone else than talk about their own pathetic lives.

He's always been non-confrontational. Never complains. Never keeps records of wrong or right. Never counts favors. Never holds grudges. He's THAT nice, and people generally love him. It's not a joke.

I can't understand why people would rather destroy the confidence of a person starting in his craft, than to find ways to improve it? They've all been in the same boat before. They all went through the SAME thing. What gives them the right to think they're better?!

It pisses me to high-heavens. And it's amazing coz I know that he can take everything in stride. And face things as if nothing happened. As if he knew NOTHING of that sort.

Such low blows. NO ONE deserves to be treated that way. NO ONE.

I finally understand what LOVE means.

I finally understood how he feels whenever I complain, or get hurt, or feel frustrated or angry, or feel discouraged, or just cry. I've done it so many times... and now I understand why he feels helpless, and why he feels HURT too.

Coz that's exactly how I feel right now. I feel as if everything was made against ME. I felt like my heart was broken.

I'm so sorry for making YOU feel that way SO many times. Thanks for understanding and supporting me time and time again. If only I could take away all the hurt, and fear, and pain. If only I could do something about it.
But all I can do is be here, right beside you. I'll be your strength, just as you have always been mine.

i MISS you.. :(

Happy 45 months my Stelly!
Wish you were here.
Come back na!!
*muah*

I miss travelling.

Amsterdam
France
UK
Germany
Belgium
Italy
Spain
US
Canada
Hongkong
Singapore
Malaysia
Thailand
Australia
Jamaica
Puerto Rico
Cayman Islands
Virgin Islands
Aruba

Those were some of the places I've been to as a kid... and the last time we took a trip as a family (all together) was in 2003. I miss travelling. It's something I'm fortunate enough to have experienced. Travelling is indeed the best teacher.

I wish I could take my kids around as much as my parents did. Wishful thinking. But it's definitely something I'll be willing to invest in.

There are still so much of the world to conquer. All those memories stay in our family's hearts and minds. Digicams weren't in fashion then. We didn't take as much pictures as we'd like.

Sigh. I miss Europe the most.

Take me there. :0

Joy...

It's funny how we find joy in the simplest things.

The weekend started out great. We received our shower of blessings (Thanks Pa!). I had a great day at the clinic. All the patients were relatively well.

Had a full dinner with my dearest friends from highschool. Talked about life, love and the future.

We had a great service at church today. Stel and I spent some time together because he was leaving for yet another mission. Had dinner with the family and Stel.

Spent the last two days with people I truly love. Simplest joys.

Our family received some really GREAT NEWS today. Yahoo.. :)

Praise God. Through it all, He's shown us the value of patience. And He showed us the true meaning of family.

Thank you LORD. :0

You know what's weird?

I purchased some new review books to help me for my upcoming exams. And seeing them today made me 'excited' about studying... Can you believe it? :)

Whenever I choose to meet Stel for lunch or wait for him after work from Cardinal, it will always be the day he'll take SO long to finish. And I mean long... I usually wait for at least an hour. You know what's weird? On other days, they are free for lunch by 1130, or get off from work by 430. What's up with that?

Stel and I went to the transport show at Megamall today. I think I ended up having more fun than he did. Coz I made him decide on the colors of his magwheels. I chose bronze. :)

We had two dinners today for a mere p800. (On average, we spend 1k and above) And we ate a LOT. We had an early snack at Conti's... and we couldn't decide where to go after the car show. We ended up in Causeway at 10pm (It was FULL, by the way). Who couldn't resist p42 dimsum late at night? Apparently it wasn't just us. Cheap dinners, but fun.

P.S. Finally AMERICA did not vote for Sanjaya to stay. I didn't think it would take THIS long. Finally. :o

I'm an addict

Obviously I've got a lot of time on my hands. Coz I do spend so much time online.

I used to be a frequent lurker (poster too..) in an online forum. But as I do with many things in my life, it grew old and I got sick and tired of it. Plus the forum came up with so much rules, I'm even scared to post a simple message, lest it be deemed as inappropriate. Stupid huh? I miss the good old days of the forum. This was where I met a whole bunch of online friends.

Now, I'm a self-confessed MULTIPLY addict. I cannot even spend a day without logging on, and checking updates and comments on my contacts' pages. Multiply paved the way for another deadly addiction -- online shopping, specifically, of accessories and the like. It is in this venue where I find the most reasonable prices for products which you will not even find in stores. And that's really how I like it. I enjoy finding unique things, and people literally have no idea where I discovered them.

My newfound love for 'pictures' has worked well with my multiply 'fondness.' It gives me great pleasure to update and share my latest life's moments with people I know... I don't know. I used to hate taking pictures, and lugging a camera around. Stel and I have been together for nearly four years... but the first few years were hardly ever documented. My family used to travel each summer too. We've been to many countries we've never even dreamed of reaching. But those were during the times digital cameras were not available yet... Whilst we had to rely on good old film to capture our precious vacations in stills. I wish we had digicams then. It would have filled thousands of online albums to the brim, with the various exotic adventures we've been on. Thank God that I'm the eldest though. Of my siblings, I'd have the most vivid memories of our summers on vacation. It would be nice to have digital pictures too...

I've rediscovered the joys of writing online too. It gives me utter joy and freedom to express myself in a venue I can call my own.

The internet has done wonders to my life as a professional bum/doctor. While I find my way into the world, let me show you my 'simple' world as I see it. And allow me to appreciate life's simply joys as well.

Bed and Breakfast Boutique Hotel at Tagaytay
Sango the Burger Master

:0

Friday the 13th

It WAS Friday the 13th... and I was on duty. BUT strangely, it was one of my BEST and most FUN duties yet.

I relieved two MDs who wanted to attend our hospital's summer outing. :)

And nothing eventful happened. ALL patients were alright. ALL my admissions were alright. Even my outpatient consults.

The consultants were ALL in a good mood.

And the great news was : there were NO morbidities, NOR mortalities. :)

After those three last week... I didn't think I was prepared for another mortality just yet.

Thank God. :)

My life in visuals...

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You know what I would do this year if ONLY I had the means and the money?

I'd take all the steps of the USMLE (Medical Licensure Examinations), and take the AMC (Australian Medical Council) exams at the same time. Just to be sure.

BUT it's just NOT possible.

I want to be selfish and superficial today. Hehe. :)

I want the new DP straight cut jeans, and the dresses, and the tunics.
I want the Melissa sandals.
I want a Carlainity carry-all.
I want the 'original' Kenneth J. Lane necklace - tusks, apples, strawberries.
I want a Chanel flap. (Minsan lang 'to...)
I want ALL the flats I can buy.

*Sigh*

Small dreams for small people. I don't want anything 'really' extravagant... Coz in due time, I know I'll be able to 'afford' these for once.

Sorry for being selfish today. *winks* *grins*

It's back to work for everyone today.

Stel starts the week with a first year resident for the next days. Everyone else is in Pangasinan, so this week will be HELL HECTIC for him.

That will give me leeway to START on my reviews. Seriously.

I should be able to apply for the Australian Medical Council Eligibility exams this week. Do pray for the developments in the weeks to come.

Hope everyone had a blessed Holy Week. I know I did :)

Thanks for staying in Manila, and spending Holy Week with me (and my family!!)...

I love you :)

There's all this fuss online about copycat sellers and the like. I know that the 'original' will always have the right to make a big deal out of it. And I DO feel for them.

But most fashion accessories available in the country, and moreso online, are 'inspired' or even 'imitations' of foreign designs... So this just makes me wonder what all THESE is all about.

Hmm.. aren't they ALL guilty of imitating in one form or another? Isn't it a free country, hence a free market?

Are their products even copyrighted or patented?

Everyone's getting engaged.

Hmm...

NOT just yet. (For me...)

Don't we look great?

Mortalities..

Three mortalities in 24hours. I can't believe it.

This has NEVER happened to me.. EVER. I hope it never will again.

I was deeply saddened by the last one. It was a 33year old recently widowed Mom of two. Her husband just passed away 6months ago due to a stroke... She came in to the ER cyanotic and lifeless. There were really no predisposing conditions.. but she had a goiter. Maybe she was in thyroid storm and her heart simply gave up.

*Sighs*

I hope I'll never be CALLOUS about all this.
God bless their families.

Be quick to listen,
slow to speak
and slow to anger...